puzzle of life

I am enjoying my Monday afternoon at home, with my mom and nephew. Finished 2 cups of tea and reading "What your dog can teach you about living a happy life" by Matt Weinstein and Luke Barber. I am a slow reader, that's why I am still half way reading it. This is cause I was really grasping every meaning of the chapters. It was so meaningful that I think everyone should read it, even though you are not a dog lover and don't understand what's like to have a dog.

So, my summer break started. And I think it's a good time to recollect my thoughts. I spent last summer for expedition. I hope I will spend this summer for "myself". I really wanna find out what I really want. I am 21 now, but still I think I'm yet to think like a 21. Honestly, I have not really find my dreams yet, means I do not know where shall I go after I graduate (though passing my 2nd year's final still an unknown...=P).

Yes, I am greedy, there's so many stuff I wanna do. Especially seeing my friends' photos telling about them traveling around are so much fun and I wanna do that too so badly.
But...after reading that "dog" book, I realized I can be satisfied sometime just sit down under the blue sky, enjoy that afternoon with a cup of tea/coffee and a good book. I admit that I like to simplify complicating stuff and complicates simple stuff. It's all about the balance I'm looking in life. Looking for this balance could be hard sometimes but I believe it's there and we just need to find it. Still, it's because I'm greedy and wanna have a sip of every bits of life. My adaptability, is so high that sometimes I accept too much things and it's not good cause it will make you lose your own standing.

Lately.....I feel I am very far away from my friends, not the physical distance, the distance of our souls. Now, I really don't understand what are they thinking and not sure if I can see them again in the future or chat with them again. One of them is so cool that I admired her actually but now I feel like she's so far away from me now. One of them is so sweet that you can just talk with her anything like there's no barriers, but now I am worry it won't be the same again. And I miss DT so much, that i dreamt of them yesterday.

No matter how hard life become, I know, that there's always family backing me up. I love them. But I think I have taken them for granted sometimes and disappointed them so many times. It's not okay.....I know they have expectations for me, but I hope that they hope for my happiness and I pray hard for their happiness and health too. I know dad seldom tells me about his financial problem, but I know there's a problem, cause it shows in his face. He always says that I do not need to worry, liar...how can i not ?! But he loves me,I know. We know, same genes, we just don't know how to show it.

There's so many puzzles in my life waiting to be solved...but is there a solution ? I would say yes and no. It's a wisdom I need to learn how to grab it and let go at the right time, still learning anyway. And I'm not alone, thank god for that. I'm feeling gratitude to have family and great friends around, born in such a beautiful country but not well-governed, but with good food, good drinks, good books, wonderful beliefs.

Yes, thank You for that. It's life, Dino. It's amazing, especially seeing a new-born and how he grows and develop, it just feel amazing. How we the homo sapiens, evolved, is already amazing itself. Sadly, some are going towards the dark age. Luckily, there are always people who fights against that dark force.

Puzzles, are not puzzles, it's all about time,faith and effort.... when all come together as ONE.






" be the change that you want to see in the world"
- Gandhi

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one day

Today is Monday, and i will tell you something to help rid some of the blues away:

one day, we are sitting together and chatting, and was asked "what kind of guy you like ?"

i think...and think....shit...no exact answer to this. it took me more than 3days to finally have a good description for it. Though i gave one answer so that the next people could talk, if not all eyes will be on me before i can give a good one.

i think, if he is someone who

• Knows how to play accoustic guitar like jack johnson,
• having spirit of john lennon,
• soul of marvin gaye,
• playing the piano like chris martin,
• quirky like sufjan stevens,
• has a little(or a lot) charisma like jude law,
• admires bob marley too,
• sometimes strum the electric guitar like jimi hendrix,
• possess a black humour like stephen chow,
• a little naughty like julian casablanca,
• tanned bod like donnie yan,
• travel the Wright way (Ian wright from lonely planet),
• knows how to cook like oliver,
• skill in making a good cup of kopi
• maybe surf like jack johnson too,
• smart like einstein (huh ?!!),
• and finally, has a look like Ah Shin from mayday.

!! does this guy ever exist ??!!

Strictly for entertainment. Hope it can rid your Monday's blues.

there's challenges all the time...if you have not realized that. We can't runaway from it. The only way to escape from it is to ignore it. But, at the end, i think I'll end up with a blank mind wandering the street without direction.

When someone gave you advice or comments, and then you felt your heart sank and the burden. This is because you knew you can do better but you just didn't, that's why your heart felt that way when you received comment and advice from somebody else, be it positive or negative.

stop!!

STOP those PDA's in front of me !!! grrr !!! you don't know i will get lemon-ed.

哪吒

one of my best childhood memories, watched it countless times, you know when tapes are still being run and fast forward and reverse were an frequent options in the remote control.

Love this cartoon so much, remember watching it when i was 4 or 5 i guess, cant really recall. I knew i cant really understand the chinese spoken in the cartoon during that time (c'mon, i was only 5...). Though I've just discovered in youtube and found out that it was produced in 1979, the music arrangement and the animation (for that era) were really outstanding and amazing !!! Guess that was partly a reason why i like heavy oriental stuff. Feel it now, grateful to my parents. They did not actually directly putting this on me, it's like an influence, positive one i can say. I love cultural things.

Like this cartoon, though i'm young, i remember i've cried watching it, forgot which part was the sad part, then this cartoon made me got a lot of imagination like playing with the towels imagine it got some super power like what i saw in the cartoon, flinging it like i will be like ne zha~

hmm....realised that i've been very retro these days, keep looking for the things and movies and songs i've heard or seen during my good-old days, maybe it's part of the ageing process, getting retro. ha!!

to me, there were too many things we've tried to improvise and forgot that sometimes keeping the old is good.

UP

....an extraordinary plot

An animation about a senior citizen floating on his house with a kid, named Russell to an island called paradise fall, a simple yet touching story about their adventure. Just finished watching it my family 5 mintues ago.

I always being easily attracted by stories that depicts human relationship beyond lovers or friends. The connections between Carl (the old man), Russell (the kid) and Dug the talking dog, it's so heart-warming. The plot just gave me that kinda velvety feeling...

Please watch "UP" if you get the chance to, try to experience the heart-warming and a rush of sweetness that you've long forgotten. We tend to forget the feelings and when we realise that there's so much we've missed with our buddies and families, it just gave you that thought, "how i long to have a cup of hot coffee with you now and chat throughout the day..."